My daughter’s favorite teacher at school is her music teacher. Recently, her music teacher had surgery. My daughter explained they made cards for her at school. I asked how she decorated the card. Her response was profound. “On the front I drew a heart because I wanted her to know that I love her. Then inside I drew a giant heart, three crosses on a hill will some grass. I also wrote, “Get well soon. We love you!” I drew the heart and the crosses because Jesus love is bigger than my love. He died for us, and loves us always. Then on the back I drew a sun, a rainbow, some clouds and some rain. Because after all you can’t have a rainbow with out some clouds, some rain, and some sun.”

What huge truth bomb! Sometimes in life we only see the rain or the clouds. Monsoon season.

Story time with Kayla: My family recently moved out to the country. We live in an area with a very high water table. In fact our water table is so high, our property is covered in crawfish; close to the pond, in the middle of our fields, and even beside our driveway. This past year, it rained and rained and rained. Our road needed some work, and was filled with pot holes. Each time it rained the driveway would fill with water. One of the pot holes was 8 inches deep and 8 feet long. It wreaked havoc on the suspension in my vehicle. We dreaded every time it would rain. Every clap of thunder conjured up the images of the mud we would track in, the number of times we would have to mop the floors, and of course the dreaded number of dog baths to be given. Each time it rained we would have to wear mud boots to get into the car. And when it rained the mud would last long beyond the rain making the torture continue on and on.

Finally, the puddles and mud would dry. Several times we won contests for the dirtiest vehicle. We won because who is going to waste money on washing a car when it will just be dirty the next time you drive down the driveway? The verdant lushness of our fields and the beautiful scenery around the pond would make the rain worth it.

How many times in our lives do we focus on the rain, the clouds, the cacophonous thunder, the bright lightning, the fear inducing storms? Most of the storms I have experienced in my lifetime have been loud ones. Rarely does it rain here gently and softly. Everything is bigger in Texas, even the storms. Living through many years of tornado season in north Texas gives you a healthy appreciation of the weather.  As a teen, one of the most costly tornadoes hit the towns around where I lived. Neighbors’ trampolines, chimneys, and fences ended up several streets away, and downtown of a local city was demolished. It took years to repair all the damage. Thankfully, the storm system was only costly in dollars and only a few lives were lost.

When you live in a place where storms are frequent, you learn how to be prepared. You gather supplies: radio, bottled water, first aid kit, nonperishable foods, a go bag, and shoes among other things. You determine where a safe place is to weather the storms. You have drills to practice safe procedures in case of an emergency. You do as much as you can to prepare yourself and your family.

What do you do about storms in your daily life? You know, monsoon season. We have all been there; rough patches, lost jobs, deaths, challenges with kids, tough coworkers, illnesses, surgeries, you name it. Storms are times of testing. Fear, anxiety, and stress all run high. Do you focus so hard on the storm you forget to look at the joy that comes afterward? The beauty in the verdant well watered land. The renewed strength during the times of peace. The personal and spiritual growth. You can’t have rainbows without clouds, rain, and sunshine.

Sun, Rain, and Clouds

Monday, Giants & a Little Boy

Today an adorable little boy came up to me and said, “Miss Kayla, you are very beautiful.” Those words from such a little person warmed my heart. What is it about a little kid speaking kind words to an adult which can make a heart melt? It wasn’t as though today was a “Monday.” It wasn’t a bad day. In fact, today was one of my favorite types of days. My favorite days are filled with teaching, productivity, laughter, and people.

I went by the cafeteria to say hi to my daughter before she headed out for recess. As I was giving her a hug, a typically rambunctious kid spoke to me. He said those thoughtful words. It made me smile from ear to ear. I felt like I could take on the world because “I am beautiful.”

Kids speak the truth. Alot. I think it is because they don’t have filters. They don’t know all of the social graces, niceties, and political correctness adults have been learning to use for years and years. Kids have a thought, then seconds later the words are out forever.   Sometimes the things they have to say are very life giving, other times words that crush you deep inside. They see your deepest insecurities, and pounce on them. Typically, they don’t mean to be malicious about it when speaking to an adult, but sometimes the words cut like a knife through butter.

Children don’t realize the emotional impact words contain. These words are swords. However, sometimes the sword is used to slay giants. Giants built from years of self loathing, negative comments, failed attempts to be better, and of course the hurtful moments from childhood.

Little boys love to play the hero, the dragon slayer, the champion. It is one of the many reasons the Bible passage about David killing Goliath strikes a chord with little boys. They see the need for a hero when Goliath is taunting the Israelites. “I’ll step up! I’m big! I’m strong! I have faith that God will lead me into victory!” (Paraphrased 1 Samuel 17.) A young shepherd takes on a giant for several reasons: defying his God cannot be tolerated as well as for the reward. But the greater is the inability to condone the filth the giant is spewing.

We all have giants. My giants are probably a little bit different than yours. Some of the things you struggle with may be completely different than mine. Things that bother me, may be a joke to you. However, the point still remains, we all have giants, and they need slaying. I know that ultimately, my giants have already been slain by the greatest Hero, Jesus Christ. But they still like to taunt me.

Today a six year old, rambunctious, hyper active, sweet talking little boy wounded one of my giants. He wasn’t seeking to gain anything from me by complimenting me. He doesn’t know the game yet. He was simply saying the words that came into his mind. Today, I stand taller because of a precious six year old. Thanks Carter for making my day!

First blog post

I have always loved to write. I’m glad technology has finally caught up with my passions. Ha. Blogging has been around for quite some time, yet I am finally getting around to making my own.

Story time with Kayla:

When I was about 11 I had the opportunity to join a Writers’ Club. The group consisted of more than a dozen adults who had taken a creative writing class together at the local community college. What started as a mandatory assignment to write as a group had become well bonded friends looking to support one another in their various writing styles. A close family friend knew of my passion for writing, and invited me to come join this band of unlikely companions ranging in age from 33 to 78. It was utterly fascinating to learn from these people. If my mother had known the genre some of the authors were writing in, she may have been less excited for me to join them. However, what she didn’t know at the time didn’t hurt her. Every month we would gather at a different member’s home. Throughout the month each person would work on their latest project or two. During the gathering several of the authors would read a section of their work for discussion, criticism, and input from other members. Sometimes they would discuss the latest publishing conference or workshop they had attended. Some in the group even had a few short stories published along the way. I was a part of the cohort for three years. It was a blessing.

Looking back on the experience, highlights a few things for me: 1) my parents are very trusting, 2) my parents encouraged my hobbies, 3) my parents saw the need in my young life for me to be around people who were different demographically yet shared a similar passion. As a parent I hope I can encourage my child to develop relationships and mentors who share her passions. People who speak life into her dreams, help her grow emotionally, academically, and in life experience.